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So, I have started a brand new endeavor this June 2020, which is junk journaling or bullet journaling! To be honest, I don really know what to call it, except that I I know that I am having fun so far and I am really enjoying the process. I would love to share this journey with you, so let's start with my tools! In case you're interested, here are the links to where I got my tools from! Dong-A Gel Pens - Black https://shopee.prf.hn/l/rpJPNpe *** Sharpie Twin Tip Markers - Black https://shopee.prf.hn/l/rpJmLv8 *** Colored Vellum Board https://shopee.prf.hn/l/6P0jXVP *** Construction Paper https://shopee.prf.hn/l/6nayXlj *** 25 PCS NO REPEAT Worldwide Used Postage Stamp Collection https://shopee.prf.hn/l/rGvlB1Z *** 70 Pieces Vintage Book Pages for Junk Journaling or Scrapbooking https://shopee.prf.hn/l/7A13wLd *** 80 PCS Vintage Junk Journal Ephemera https://shopee.prf.hn/l/70vGwql *** Vintage Journaling Paper Pack https://shopee.prf.hn/l/Kma5J93 *** Big Pack of Assorted Papers for Junk Journaling https://shopee.prf.hn/l/75yGglB *** Digno Selfy Gel Pen 0.5mm Assorted 10s https://shopee.prf.hn/l/7x34RoP *** Binder Clip Fold Back Clip https://shopee.prf.hn/l/7ovNe8E *** DOMS PLAIN KRAFT NOTEBOOK 40 LEAVES https://shopee.prf.hn/l/6lPeV4v *** Permanent Marker Fine Tip - Black https://shopee.prf.hn/l/KL0Pgww *** Glue Stick https://shopee.prf.hn/l/rvO3dAo *** Water Chalk Pen 12pcs Colorful Assorted https://shopee.prf.hn/l/reWbPm0 *** Kraft Paper https://shopee.prf.hn/l/75yNYEo *** Kraft Board https://shopee.prf.hn/l/7x3nkQG *** Zuixua Neon Color Pastel and Metal Pens Highlighter Glitter https://shopee.prf.hn/l/7ovVlJB *** Disclaimer: Products marked with *** were sent by the brand/s or were gifted via PR Kits. Links marked with *** are affiliate links that help me earn a small commission from your purchase, which helps me in creating more quality content for you. Thoughts, reviews, and feedback about the products remain the same, honest and true. These do not have any impact on how I create my reviews or feedback about the products. Thank you for the support
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 Last week, I joined a group on Facebook that is focuses on self esteem improvement by means of journal writing. I am a bit late to the party, as this started last May 1st, but I still decided to go and catch up.

Also, i have decided that I'm just going to churn out blog posts whenever I want to. Writing has always been my solace and my escape, and I am going back to it. I am going to make sure I am okay first before I go ahead and try to make things better for others.

This weeks focus is identifying root causes, and the prompt given is:

What does your self esteem and and confidence look like right now? Identify a few areas you feel your self esteem is weak and a few areas where you feel it is strong. Be as detailed as possible. How does your current self esteem benefit you or limit you? 

Right now, May 5th, 2020, my self esteem is pretty much non-existent. Mostly because I am seeing my peers be more successful than I am, and it hurts. Big time.

I feel like I am chasing something that isn't there. Like I am going after something but I don't really know what it is. Success? Fame? Recognition? I don't really know.

Yet, I also know that what I am feeling is valid and that this is normal and that I know that I am going to get over this and be happy and yadda yadda --

Right now it doesn't feel like it.

Right now I feel so unmotivated and incomplete and unsuccessful. Right now I feel like I am nothing, and that I won't ever achieve anything and that everything that I have been working on is going to waste. Right now I can't feel that my other successes are valid. I feel like I am being left out. But I also feel like I don't really have a right to feel like this because I have it so much better than others.

I have a job. I earn from what I love to do. I have a beautiful relationship with the most amazing man in the world. I am reaching milestone after milestone.

But I still feel like I am not enough and that I am incomplete.

I feel like I am not going to complete anything anymore.

So that is how my self esteem and confidence is looking right now. I know this is not good. For me or for my career. It is limiting me from working on the things that I see much potential in. It is limiting my creativity. It is giving me a headache. It is demotivating and debilitating.

I know I can snap out of this, but right now I can't.

So we'll end here.

See you in my next one.

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This was initiated by Kate Joy of www.katejoycoaching.com
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